stonehalledall @ MindSay

The only major life-changing event was when I suffered a 4-week long period, and got sent to the doctor's. They assumed I was anaemic, and said I needed a blood test.

So being the tyranopanophobic that I am, I waited in dread - losing more sleep at night than I normally do.

On the night before the needle, I didn't sleep at all. I started a new save on Pokémon Sapphire and played it all night, on my DS - with these headphones my mam got with her phone.

OH MY GOD, THEY'RE WELL LOUD.

They proper blow your head off.

Nothing better than cranking the volume up to full every time a Blackbelt or a Psychic challenges you. - My word, their music is legend.

So yeah, I went to the doctor's - and the nurse had given me a local anesthetic cream beforehand, so that got lobbed all over my elbows - and my arms were numbed for the whole day.

Right, so I couldn't feel the needle - but it's not the pain of them that scares me.

But either way, the nurse was talking to me like I was a really little kid - so I felt really small and weak, helpless and that. But she was nice.

Actually, there were two - the first one had to call for a second because my veins are really deep.

But yeah, I think mam was feeling a bit sorry for me after that, so... She took me into Morrison's and bought me some Rolo doughnuts.

Oh, they were NECTAR. Chocolate topping with chocolate 100's&1000's, and caramel in the middle. *Orgasmz*

But over the last couple of weeks, I've done nothing but stay awake till 5-6AM, go to sleep, wake up between 2-4PM, eat stuff - go on the forums, watch Big Brother - rinse, repeat.

How boring am I.

Oh, and speaking of rinse, our fucking shower's broken.

I FUCKING HATE BATHS.

I proper don't feel clean afterwards, because I can't rinse my hair properly. ARGHHHHHH...

Mam bought me Guitar Hero: On Tour on Monday.

It's a lot harder than the games with the actual guitar, I'll admit that.

I was really doubting it at first, because there's a lot of shit songs - but as soon as I got to level 4, the Greek Arena...

OH MY WORD...

First, we've got some crazy jazz shit about cats! That's Stray Cat Strut, by... The Stray Cats. Rofl.

Follow that up with some ZZTOP, MUTHAFUCKERS!!!

La Grange! It's on Guitar Hero III!

Another song from GH3, we've got Black Magic Woman!

(And for some reason, they censor the word 'devil'...)

BUT OH MY, THAT'S NOTHING!

BEAT ALL FOUR SONGS, AND YOU GET THE FUCKING ENCORE!!!

- THEY CALL US "PROBLEM CHILD", WE SPEND OUR LIVES ON TRIAL, WE WALK AN ENDLESS MILE...

WE ARE THE YOUTH GONE WILD!!!!!!!-

I've downloaded that song, about... Well, it was about 8 hours ago now?

Well, it's already got a play count of 45.

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Entry 90. [Excited] --- Photos & Pikachu Abuse!

Dixie currently feels:

Excited

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I really have destroyed my sleep patterns.

I'm suffering from severe insomnia - the only time I can actually sleep is between noon and 4PM.

I stay up all night now, either playing on my DS, playing Brawl - or hanging about on the forums.

Forums!

Which brings me to the reason why I'm so excited.

Raven The Ravenous, a user on my forums has suggested that a lot of us get together in threads and work on a collaboration fan fiction.

I've wrote with four other FFN users before, but that was only duos.

This is going to be with 11+ users, with about 3-4 at once.

I don't like to seem like I'm taking charge, because I'm not.

I may be the admin, and I organise the threads and stuff - but I seriously do love organising things.

Due to this, I want to be the fic cleaner.

I cleaned all four of the other fics I wrote with others, and I really enjoy doing it.

But yeah, I reckon Raven should be the fic producer, seeing as how it was his idea.

A great idea, might I add.

I've asked if I can take part - and be a rival character.

My character's going to be realistic in effect, be exactly like I am, because I'll find it easier to write that way.

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Today I felt like taking lots of photos.

So, I've taken some which sort of relate to the way I want to come across in the forum's collaboration fic.

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Rival Dixie

1. - Dixie is thinking.

2 - Dixie is still thinking. This is a closer shot, and I can't remember how I ended up taking it, but I like it.

3 - Dixie is contemplating.

4 - I found a way to set a countdown on the camera, so I can do a full shot of myself now.

5 - I took this one by accident. This is the black punk jacket I mentioned in the "things in common" thread.

6 - Dixie, in top form. This is how I'm going to appear firstly in the collaboration fic - sketching gory images in my little black book.

7 - Dixie is glaring at you. I'm actually glaring at the camera, but you can't see my eyes because of my fringe.

8 - Dixie is the displeased rival. I'm one not to be crossed.

9 - With Pokéball in hand, Dixie searches through this shrubbery in the hopes of finding a Chikorita.

10 - ...Pokéball, go!

11 - Don't make me have to use this...

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Rough Dixie

1 - ...Ow... Did that leave a mark?

2 - ...Eww, I can feel blood.

3 - ...Does it look infected?

4 - Beaten and bruised. (I apologise for the camera lens cap being in the shot! )

5 - Urrrrrgh... Pain...

6 - *Groans* ...Musn't cry... Musn't cry...

(I want this one to be my new avatar!)

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Pikachu Abuse!

1 - ...Mwah... You're gonna get it, yellow bastard.

2 - ...Oh Pikachuuuu...!

3 - Pikachu... Turn around darling...

4 - Guillotine!

5 - Pikachu is hanged.

6 - Gagged and interrogated at gunpoint.

7 - Spider torture!

8 - Skull wound!

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Entry 89. [Depressed] --- Am I really that obvious?

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Dixie currently feels:

Depressed

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Yesterday, whilst Adam was round here again - he told me he can tell when I'm depressed.

His main reasoning was, whenever I'm with him, I'm prone to laughing spontaneously for long periods of time. I'll laugh a lot at most seemingly normal things he says.

But his reasoning was that when I'm depressed, I don't laugh, I'll only smile minorly.

So I thought, and I applied it - and I found that he was right.

So I'm wondering, am I really that obvious?

When I'm alone in the house and depressed, I'll wander up and down the passage, staring at the floor.

If I'm laid on the sofa in the living room, I'll stare at my reflection in the fireplace for ages.

If I'm in my room, I usually sit differently in my chair - I'll slouch more, whilst I normally sit really straight.

I've also noticed I get less enjoyment from things, and when I think to myself, I swear less, and when I talk, my voice is a lot more emotionless.

When I'm around others, I'll isolate myself.

In school, I'd sit down my aisle, or I'd sit at a table alone.

If I were on a table with others, I'd remain silent, and work quicker, with my head down.

Yeah, I'm starting to realise.

I actually am that obvious.

I must've been really sad yesterday, because Adam actually hugged me.

And that never happens.

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Entry 88. [Depressed] --- JUNE IS PATCHY AS FUCK.

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Dixie currently feels:

Smiley Depressed

...Very fucking depressed.

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Here is a numbered list of why Dixie is depressed today:

- I had to watch my daddy holding someone else's baby again. I hate it.
- I've been thinking about college and how terrible it will be.
- Watching Big Brother has made me realise my social phobia even more.
- I miss Emily so fucking much now. I'm crying at nighttimes when I can't sleep because I think about her.
- June is patchy as fuck, I really don't have anything to blog about anymore.
- I'm constantly bored now.
- I still can't write anything.

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Entry 87. [Depressed] --- No more schoolz!

Dixie currently feels:

Depressed

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Alright, another full week without blogging.

It's been my last week of secondary school.

I sat my final few exams, did my final few revision sessions, and finished off my final piece of coursework. I left on Friday, straight after my last exam, which was Additional Science unit 3.

And now, I have two months and two days to do whatever I want!

I has my final bit of freedom for a while.

And, I'm refusing to get a job, as I keep continually being pressured to.

Screw that, I'm not in desparate need for money. I'm content with all of my current possessions.

I've done nothing majorly interesting this week - except download about 100 episodes of The Powerpuff Girls.

Oh, and with a few of them, and some other random videos I stole from YouTube with Vixy Converter, I made some YouTube poops.

My first one wasn't great, but my second one was much better - and they're currently on YouTube for you to view.

Today, I've been playing Banjo-Kazooie.

I finished off the last level in the game - but I died before I managed to grab the last four music notes. ...So I have to go through it again and get them all. And the Jinjos.

Yeah, and I've also got the hardest level in the game to finish off too - get all the notes in that, but I always die before I get to the last ones!!!

I've downloaded some more Cannibal Corpse.

My current favourite song is Chambers Of Blood.

Unlike most Cannibal Corpse songs, this one has a really recognisable tune to it.

I've just finished off two more boards on Mario Party 4 whilst I sorted out some more music for my iTunes library.

I'm going to have another stab at those two levels now. ARGH...

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Entry 86. [Alone] --- Scrabble, sleepovers, expensive ice-cream and HENZ!

Dixie currently feels:

Smiley Alone

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- I was planning for my blog title to be alliterative, but I think there's only like two things I'm going to mention that start with S.

So I sort of failed there.

Adam stayed over last night (Saturday).

We started off by him coming at about half 12 - and waking me up. So I went and had a shower, and we sat around for a while, playing Guitar Hero III and watching random stuff on YouTube.

Then he leant me his monster turbo hairdryer, because we were sick of waiting for my hair to dry before we could go out.

- Yeah, on Friday, I went to ASDA with mam. We bought some stuff for Adam and I to munch on, and I bought some socks for dad for father's day today, and a card. I got Adam some hairbands and some Jelly Babies for his birthday present - as he turns 16 tomorrow.

I actually made a bit more effort this year, because I totally forgot his birthday last year.

We're best friends, and have been for like 11 years - and I forgot his bloody birthday.

I actually remembered it, TEN MINUTES AFTER IT HAD PASSED.

At like 00:10, I remembered.

Mam went a bit overboard, she wanted to get Adam presents herself - so she went mental, buying him a Smarties cake, a shirt, a little bracelet kit (as a joke, of course. ), some Malteasers and some deoderants.

Because it was father's day weekend, ASDA had put all their birthday cards away, so there was a really shitty selection.

Lmfao, today's fucked suggested tag is "I heart Adam".

I do, but he never hugs me. Which makes me sad.

But when I was shooping with mam, I persuaded her to get me some Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice-cream.

It's whopper expensive.

It's about the same price as Hagen Daz - which is THE expense of frozen desserts.

I got a little tub, about 250ml, - £2.70!

I told Adam over MSN before he came, and he got a craving for it himself.

Anyway, after my hair was dry - (I put on the new shirt mam had bought me on Friday - red and grey striped polo with a collar ) - we went down to ASDA so Adam could get his dad and his nana presents for father's day and her birthday, respectively.

And we got a big tub of Ben & Jerry's half-baked. - I actually preferred the cookie dough, but they were both proper lush.

So we got home and shared that - then returned upstairs to play some more Guitar Hero III and mess about with anything we found - like we normally do.

Then we watched The Weakest Link: Blue Peter special - and I don't know WHY we watched it, either...

I think we were just bored and couldn't be arsed, so we watched telly instead of playign video games.

Earlier on, whilst faffing on with the cable box, Adam found the music on demand menu - and we found tons of music videos we could watch for free.

So we watched AFI, Slipknot, Gorillaz, All-American Rejects and The Ting Tings.

- When mam and dad came home, I forced mam to watch The Ting Tings' video. She didn't like them, but after I'd been banging on about them all week, I felt she ought to know why.

I made us lamb grillsteaks and chips for tea, and we watched Dr. Who. I played on my DS for a little while, because I don't understand Dr. Who at all - because I don't watch it, really.

It was alright though, it killed some time.

When mam and dad came home, Adam started banging on about playing Scrabble again.

- Last Saturday, he'd wanted to as well, and I didn't want to get under my bed.

I actually wanted to play it myself yesterday though, so he stopped downstairs, and I went upstairs, propped the airbed against the wall, and started looking under my bed.

I found a little box that belonged to my grandad, with dominoes, draughts and chess in it - magnetic!

I put that to one side, because it's awesome.

I also took out my Lego, which I found, (You'll see... ) and I even found my old hymn book from primary school.

I sang some of my favourite ones to myself as I looked for the game.

As I stuck my head inside, the airbed fell down on top of me - so I had my head and my shoulders stuck inside my bed, surrounded and enclosed by piles of boxes and tins, with a big beasty airbed on top of me.

It took me about five minutes to get out!

- But I found the Scrabble - and Adam read through the hymnbook too, and we both felt nostalgic at our memories of singing them at primary school.

It was about 12 by this time - and mam and dad were in bed.

Adam said it was too depressing in my room at night, so he wanted to play Scrabble downstairs.

- And we were there for two hours!

Everything is so much funnier when you can't make any noise... Seriously.

Our first few games of Scrabble were quite good - and it also gave us something to piss ourselves over all night.

See, we were coming to the end of one of the games, and I had some really shitty tiles like F, X, J and Z.

Earlier on, I'd been desparate, and put down 'HEN'. - A proper shitty word, worth proper nothing.

Out of boredom, frustration and annoyance, when Adam wasn't looking, I added the Z to the end of 'HEN'.

So it then became 'HENZ'.

And I was proper laughing into a pillow, so he realised summat had amused me - and he didn't realise for ages, but when he did, we were both adding it randomly into sentences and pissing ourselves.

- When we were setting the airbed and the sheets upstairs - bear in mind, this is at about half 2 in the morning - Adam forgot to get the extra cushions, and he goes: "Oh wait, I just need to go get the HENZ..." - and I was crying at it!!

Before we went to sleep properly, after we'd set the airbed up, and Adam was laid on it, and I was laid next to him in my own bed - we were playing on Pictochat on DS.

Of course; we were drawing pictures of hens, or HENZ, should I say.

Then we started our Guitar Hero piss-taking again.

Hit Me With Your Best Henz - ROFL.

She Bangs The Henz - LMFAO.

Through The Fire And Henz - PMSL.

And so on.

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Next day, today - we woke up at about 11 - well, my mam woke us up - coming in the room, shouting: "SOCKS!", and putting a bag down on my computer desk.

We played some more Scrabble, and I got a proper legendary streak.

I put down 'DYKE' on a triple word score, and got about 30-od points.

Then from it, I added 'FETID', and got another 30-od, thanks to the triple word score.

Then Adam owned me in the next two games, of course.

We had our showers, then played some co-op Guitar Hero III.

We haven't played it together for a long while, and we've gotten a LOT better.

We were going from 3 stars to 5 stars on Expert-Expert.

Then, I got the wonderful Lego, and I built myself a castle.

- I was doing most of it whilst Adam was washing his hair and browsing YouTube.

...And I have photos.

Here's my castle from the front - notice my two identical guards.

Here's an arial shot.

I'm going to explain each part now, with a close-up shot of each.

This is the main living quarters.

At the back, you can see the king's treasure chest, laid out on his royal red carpet.

To the right, that's the king's throne, and his table - complete with a large ice-cream knickerbocker glory, and a pack of cards - because my king is a gambler.

At the front, that's the king's sleeping quarters, and his pet cat Soda sitting on it.

Here's the kitchen.

Complete with two water-pumps, a large mixing cauldron, and jars of spices on the wall.

There's also some bottles of beer and lemonade for his majesty's liquid nourishment.

Here's the guardrobe - or the toilet.

You can see some weaponry and a broomstick at the front - they're kept in a barrel in case they're needed.

For the comfort of the king and his knights, I enclosed the toilet with some walls.

Oh, and I added a mirror, so the knights can squeeze their spots.

The best part of every castle - the dungeon!

That's actually made with some jail bars I got from a Mega Bloks cowboy set.

Luckily, Lego and Mega Blocks usually fit together.

I even added a festering skeleton inside.

Oh, and some moss growing on the ceiling!

Here's a close-up of the guards.

I was going to give them helmets, but I only had three, and none of them matched.

Oh well, they can be subjectible to headshots.

Here's the royal archer, perched on the right battlement.

And on the left battlement is the king's trustworthy knight.

I love Lego people - and all the accessories you get with them.

And here's our foolhardy king - doing a little dance on the front turret.

Behind him, you can see the head of a traitor to the castle.

Mwah, that will serve as a warning to others.

And then, I started taking funny pictures with them.

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I knew it wasn't safe to stand on that turret!

Our king took a plunge into the horses' feeding trough, his sheild and sword scattered, and his cape seriously splattered.

Yes, I like my alliterations.

Our king punishes the unruly and lazy guards.

Of course, medieval style - he chains them up by their feet from the front turret.

Here's a closer shot.

You can almost hear their screams of pity as the blood rushes to their hairy heads.

And what's a castle without a few beheadings?

The royal knight beheaded this guard with his own axe - now THAT'S harsh.

Now that's an ice-cream fit for a king!

I think Soda would like a lick too.

Ah, Lego is fun.

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After Adam had gone, I downloaded some videos from YouTube - ready to go on my future iPod.

After being reminded of the Powerpuff Girls by hearing their song in a background of another video, I scoured YouTube for some full episodes.

It took some doing, but I have found some.

I've downloaded all the ones I could find - INCLUDING ONE OF MY FAVOURITES!!! - and I've even got to watch three new ones I hadn't seen before.

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Entry 85. [Alone] --- So what's changed?

Dixie currently feels:

Alone

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I haven't blogged much this week.

I've been so exhausted with all of the exams and revision sessions I've been doing.

I've been coming in and falling asleep most of the time.

With everybody now leaving me, all I do now is download music and sort it out - then put it on iTunes.

So far, I only have 850 songs and 57 videos.

But tomorrow I'm going to add loads more.

The Media Studies exam on Tuesday was piss.

The two 20 mark designing questions were exactly the same as the ones we had in the mock - design a music TV programme, and design a comic front cover.

I did the same two designs.

Typically, it was the best drawing of #1263 I've ever done, and I won't get to keep it.

Those Welsh bastards at the WJEC better appriciate it.

Today I had a Geography exam.

It wasn't so easy, but it wasn't overly difficult.

I have Friday and Monday off - FOUR DAY WEEKEND - and I'm gonna chill like fuck.

I might even end up eating all the ice cubes in the freezer.

It's been so hot recently, but today, I'm wearing a hoody in the house. Mam's wearing a jacket, dad's wearing a jumper - it's so cold.

Mam upset me earlier, so I used BSR again.

I only did 5 cuts, just above my elbow, but they were quite deep.

I downloaded 'That's Not My Name' by The Ting Tings earlier.

It's a really bright and happy indie-pop song, and it cheered me up a bit.

I've tried completing The Impossible Quiz four times in the past 10 minutes.

Every single time, I died on question 107.

107! THERE'S ONLY 110!!!

I watched a video of someone complete it, and I KNOW I can do questions 108, 109 and 110.

It's just 107!

...Alright, "wearing a tie" is a suggested tag today.

I haven't worn a tie in ages.

All through the Geography revision sessions, I've sat at the back with Miraan and done nothing but draw freehand sketches of #1263.

They've all turned out quite good.

I've drawn her in her school uniform from the end of the novel, wearing #1264's huge polo shirt from Rivalry, in her favourite outfit of a white and red shirt and green shorts, and then I drew her bedraggled and distraught after Imprisonment.

I've began to write Decampment - the chapter that comes after Imprisonment.

I need to finish Perseverance, then I'll be able to post it up.

I've gone over chapter 1 of Fire of Glory, and that's ready to be re-posted.

Either today or tomorrow, or even Saturday, maybe Sunday, maybe Monday - I'll go over chapter 2 and I'll post that up as well.

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Entry 84. [Depressed] --- Dixie loves iTunes!

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